I sprung into summer
but i felt like fall
while the leaves blow cold
my mind began to stall
in the breeze we roll
thats when i heard the call
i want remember a little
but forget it all

but i cant

but i cant

these memories haunt me

thats why i write my rants

but i can

but i can

if im a man with two hands

i can make a plan

Thoughts everywhere
The demons are surrounding
I see the evil envelope with ease
as you try to think about me
these chains have forever bound me
boundless now drowning and doubting how astounding

When i try to repeat peace
or achieve sleep
i rest for days but i
bleed for weeks
and i see the police
i believe ive beat
to impede this scene
overtime past death
ill exceed deceased

ill exceed deceased so just
rest in peace
with a jesus piece the
pieces in the streets
dont screech or peep
peek at the price
when i bought the bars
i didnt need receipts

i didnt need receipts
i didnt know the price
oversized tonight
to over price my life

over price my life
and now im so high
i didnt buy wings
but watch me fly



I don't mind for a second

Been doing this all my life now restless

I try to forget it

But I can't

I thought I learned my lesson

Now I'm on a rant
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Look around and i see the days
Replay the maze that i thought had saved

My life in these different ways do the waves
play while my sight strays away from the shelter and the shame

Towards the other side just to die in the night but my soul shines bright
to bow to the light i reprise my rights to fight by your side
for the size of lies the mice will hide inside
then jump out at night
to bite your eye
you scream and you shout
no one heres your cries

Well thats how i feel
Every single second
I scream for help
but no one gets the message

My life i lived was reckless
But thats also why its fun
I am who i am
because i didnt die by the gun

but i lived high for fun
So high i could ride the sun
My old life catches up
When i try to run

Pt 2.

I can try to do the best I can

But it's never good enough

As man i'm blessed I ran

This race even when it's rough

I can dig it
A living minute
A dead second

I can hit it
A quitting instance
A red presence

I can fix it
The spitting business
A lead heaven

I can miss it
A fitting privileged
A life lesson

Yeah
My present is the present assessment
A pleasant segment represented by
weapons or maybe heavens my question
A shape of crescent blessed with sevens another depressant to go with my mind another presence just to ease my life
another tenant inhabiting lives I count to ten when elevens in disguise

I lay here wondering
what life's means go me

Because nothing that I see
Is what it seems to be

People reading lines
Into a camera for a box

People betting lives
As to answer crimes and stocks


so that's why I
close my mind
and imagine being all alone

so that's why i
I open my eyes
realize I just follow home

I need to find a meaning
but this life deceiving
who really wants to be me
all these tears are streaming

off my face
into a pool below
I just play by rules that
only fools would know

I keep it real
with the truest flow
Once Crippled but set free
with room to grow

I felt the ache on the day by the lake
My heard did break on the day you played
games with my mind I couldn't wait to stray
Away from this life today's the day
That I contemplate my fate
You only wanted love
and I couldn't fake the hate

So I put pen to paper
To lessen my anger
Only create these goals to regretabbly
rest in my failures

Again I never want to see ya
Or have you mentioned on a feature
Now I'm playing games
While you're on the bleachers

But it's better to have loved
Than to have never of loved at all

It's better to be pick yourself up
after you fall

I guess that we learn
How to cure the worst
From deep in our minds
It surely works

I've raised myself from hell
now I reside in a heaven
people thanking God
I didn't need a blessing

I did this by myself
No one by my side
I didn't need help

I grew a better man
From being a sad boy
Not a day went by
When I didn't have joy

Becauae it was always there
I just had to find it
sometimes it just took
one simple reminding

But here I am
20 songs and a story
writing my thoughts
writing my wrongs heart is pouring

So I guess there it is
Goodbye to the old me
I began as clay
But I'm finally molding

I see the peace on a sunday
someday we'll reach the peak
one way
or another
down the runway
substrate with some pain
to upgrade with funds made
only done
the dumb way

Intelligence
Truly what we lack
I lay here wondering
When we'll get it back

We never really look
but we have to face the facts
A criminal or crook
Is where the blames at

But really its just you and me
We need to do better
How else can the sunshine
In this rainy weather

I need to push my limits
And play my part with
Wonder in my wisdom
So here we start